Buti pa sila, may lovelife. Ako wala :(
"Tama na nga, hindi ka na nya mahal.."
Shittest thing i’ve ever heard this day. And it hurts like hell </3
I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it’s different now
You’re still here somehow
My heart won’t let you go
And I need you to know
Ang sarap ng feeling ng may humahawak sa kamay mo. Yung alam mong secure ka kapag nasakanya yung kamay mo. Nakakakilig na nga, safe ka pa. Diba ang saya ng ganun? Kahit na pasmado man yan, mahaba man kuko mo, medyo madumi man. Hahawakan pa rin nya. At hinding hindi nya bibitawan. Hindi nya hahayaang iba ang makahawak. Dahil sisiguraduhin nyang sakanya lang ang kamay na yan.
The feeling of being kissed by the one you loved the most. It's one of the best feeling we could ever feel in this world. Tasting, kissing and biting the lips while your arms are entangled with his/her body. Kissing passionately and expressing how you love one another are priceless. Hearing the sound of collision of each others lips are addictive and couldn't make you stop because you'll be wanting for more. You'll be both unstoppable. Everything will be romantic and meaningful.
Kapag mahal mo talaga ang isang tao, hindi mo dapat alam ang salitang paghihiganti. Kahit dumating sa puntong nakagawa siya ng malaking kasalanan, kalokohan o kahit na anong mangyari. Hindi porket nasaktan ka niya ay sasaktan mo rin siya. Hindi porket napalingon lang siya sa iba ay gagawin mo narin yung ginawa niya. Hindi porket nagselos ka sa kaibigan niya, pagseselosin mo din siya. Oo, unfair nga pero hindi ka dapat magpapadala sa galit na kalaunan ay magiging dahilan ng pagganti mo sapagkat isa ito sa mga anay na unti-unting sisira sa matatag na pundasyon ng inyong relasyon. Kapag gumanti ka, pinapahaba mo lamang ang proseso at pinapalayo mo ang finish line para magkaayos at magkabati kayo. Kapag hindi mo winalis sa bakuran ang mga natuyong dahon, maiipon lang sila at magdudulot ng malaking kaguluhan. Kaya walisin ang galit sa puso’t isipan na magdudulot ng paghihiganti o mas malala, ang hiwalayan. Tandaan, lahat ng bagay ay nadadaan sa mabuting usapan at kung pinapahalagang tunay ang relasyon, hindi pagganti ang solusyon.
Look into her eyes and you’ll know how she really feels.
You can see her smile and you can hear her laughter as if she’s not facing a lot of problems in her life. But the truth is, she doesn’t know what to do and whom to talk to anymore. She doesn’t know how to lessen the problems that she’s been facing right now. Look into her eyes and you’ll be able to know how she really feels. You’ll see everything, the sadness, anger, and the sufferings are all there. You’ll be able to feel it. You’ll be able to know her more. She feels that her life is worthless just like a trash which is already need to be disposed. She has done everything just to get what she really needs but maybe her actions are still not enough for her to succeed. Sometimes, she thinks that there’s something wrong with her that she really needs to change. Whenever she’s alone, she always wonder why she was being left out and why did she let great opportunities just passed her by. Whenever she sees a person who looks so very happy, she always asks herself if there will a come a time that she will be able to feel the same level of genuine happiness even just for once. But then, that’s the only thing that she can do at this moment, to wonder why and to ask herself when. Sometimes, she loses hope especially when she sees other people who instantly get the things that they want. She will ask herself once again. Why? Why does she can’t get the things that she really wants and it takes so long for her to get them? Every time she thinks that her life is indeed such a mess, she’s hurting and she just wants to disappear without a trace because she knows that it is destined to happen anyway and no one’s gonna look for her after all. Nobody will notice that she’s gone because in the first place, no one asked her how she’s doing, no one had the courage to look at her eyes because they only noticed her sweet smile and her laughter, and no one else noticed the sadness that has been covering her entire being ever since.
on the need to be happy
I’ve gone through a phase, where in I told myself that I really should just be happy. Be happy about nothing or anything or both. Be happy about the details. Be happy about trying to be considerate and meticulous despite having bigger chances that the negative aspects will jump at you whenever, wherever.
But I had always known that being “just happy” would never be enough, that things would never feel satisfyingly right if I start depending my happiness on nonexistent variables. I knew - I know - that what I really needed was a reason, a single speck either marked or moving through time that can motivate me, inspire me, make me “want” to be someone who shoots off firecrackers through grins instead of someone who looms over everything with her frowns. I wanted - want - something or maybe even someone.
Until now I’m still struggling to keep up with how I see things and how I view myself. I want things, but then at the end of the day our wants never tend to matter as much as our needs. It’s just sad how people go for the immediate and easiest method that can “possibly” quench the musts, without any guarantee that the ways similar to child’s play will actually do a swell job in satisfying our distresses. Desire is still more powerful than urgency, especially if the person tends to “want” things to a severing degree.
Little Miss Dreamer.
15 yrs.|College Freshie|BS-IE|TIP-QC
Curly hair covers my face, a frizzy hair everytime I wake up. Braced teeth. Fat ass. A meanie. A dreamer. Blogger, writer. And a frustrated photographer.